Tuesday, December 13, 2011

My son is worthless after school!

So today was Jack's third day of preschool and it is a big adjustment for all of us.  The main issue is that Jackson is completely exhausted when he gets home. He was put in the afternoon class, so the school bus comes for him around 12:45pm, and he doesn't get home until nearly 5:00pm. I have always had problems with Jackson not getting enough sleep. He stopped napping completely when he was two and it was horrible. He was so tired today after school that he didn't even know which way was up.  He couldn't tell me about class or what he talked about today.  He burst into tears more times than I can count, for ridiculous things like not being the first kid in the bathtub, or when I tried to have a quiet chat with him.  He has a spaz-attack if I touch his arm gently, in an attempt to get him to focus and listen to me.
I hope it is just an adjustment period. I am going to call the school in a few weeks if things don't improve. I can't deal with with the three boys constantly competing and fighting.

***This was typed originally back in December.  I never did remember to post it, I kept thinking I would be able to write a bit more.  An update, Jackson is still pretty much done for the day when he gets off the bus, but we have all gotten used to the new schedule a little bit more, and I have learned he needs to zone out for awhile after school.. I can respect that!! I remember coming home and being immediately engulfed, and it was hard-I would have loved to just get my work clothes off first!! So I am trying to respect that school takes a lot out of my little man, and try to leave him alone to decompress for awhile!

Thursday, December 8, 2011


Today was my oldest son's first day of preschool.  Last summer, before I lost my job we had enrolled Jackson in a church run preschool, but had to pull him out when our financial situation changed. Our amazing PAT rep helped me with getting Jackson enrolled in our city's school district's Early Childhood Education Center's preschool classes.

So the bus came for him today at 12:50. His class is from 1:20 to 4:20. He was so happy!  When the bus came, he jumped right on and never looked back! I was so sad and happy and proud all at the same time.  The rest of the afternoon for me was very slow and I wondered what he was doing every ten minutes.  The bus was supposed to bring him home at 4:40, but didn't come until 5:10-waiting really sucked because its freezing, and I had Forrest and Silas with me (Matt was already gone to work).  The bus finally came, we walked home and went through the whole "takeoffyourshoesandcoatsandhats" song and dance and finally I got to ask him how school was.

My answer? "Mom, I am just too hungry to talk about it right now."  So after a snack, I asked him what his favorite part about school today was. He told me, "My favorite part was getting on the bus and coming home."    Hmmmmm.

Then he wanted to go play cars upstairs in his bedroom with Forrest so off they went.  In his backpack his teacher wrote a note that he had a good first day. I prodded him about it more during bathtime, and he said they sat on a rug, sang and talked, played, and went outside. He said he got Teddy Grahams and chocolate milk.

Then he told me he had a sore throat and that I probably better take his temperature.  I am not sure what that was about, but I am sure this will be a big adjustment for a little boy who has stayed home with his family all four years of his life.

I will wait and see what tomorrow brings!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Loving Life!

It has been five months since I traded a stressful full-time job at a busy medical office for the joy of staying home with my family and I couldn't be happier.  As each day passes I feel like I am finally doing what I am supposed to do at this point in my life.  After seven years of time, love and tears at the medical office, the change was very scary. Financially the loss of my job meant some severe cutbacks and possibly a future move.

These fears faded away immediately as I began to reacquaint myself with my little family and learn their daytime routines and of course, I finally got to relax! After years of waking up dreading the day ahead, I am awake as soon as I hear Forrest sneaking out of his room to cause trouble, and I am happy to wake up!

Some of the things that I now have time to do are:
*Take my children to the pediatrician for check-ups and also for acute care (without feeling guilty for calling in!) and to specialist appointments for the asthma and allergy doctor
*Find an pediatric dentist, and take each boy to his first ever dental appointment
*Take the boys to WIC appointments (again the missing work issue)
*Clean my house
*Laundry-(I do have to admit putting away the clean laundry is still an ongoing issue)
*Play with my kids! Read to my kids! Snuggle and hug and kiss my kids!! (I did this before but never enough!!)
*Learn about the kitchen, and trying to figure out this whole "cooking" thing. I am so proud, today is the first time in ten years that I made dinner for my husband and he liked it. I think he was even impressed!
*Organize the insane mess and collection of crap that goes along with having three boys (four, if you count Matt)
*Read, and write, and do things that make me happy!!

I was not one of those amazing women who are able to balance a career with motherhood. Props to all of you out there doing it-and more!!

I know that right now I am doing exactly what I should be doing and I have proof. I just have to look at my boys. They have changed so much since I started staying home-they are the best behaved they have ever been! I used to have some discipline problems and I also used to yell non stop after a hard long day at the office. Now I am patient and can take the time to just be in the moment with my darlings and they have just blossomed with all my attention.  My husband won't ever say it, but I know he enjoys having me home more than he ever thought he would!

For me this chance to be home is a dream come true. I don't want to take a single minute of it for granted. I have an amazing family and am so blessed.